Have you desired to be free? Have you longed to obtain true freedom in your Mind, Body, Spirit, & Soul? Freedom provides an air of Relief and Release, where the Soul unveils anything and everything without overwhelming the Mind. To dwell in the spirit of Freedom is to reside in the space where your mind doesn’t override your emotions, but to also be totally free from the desire to be “in control” of your emotions. Feelings are not something that are supposed to be “controlled” or “in control of”. True freedom comes from expressing and ultimately processing your emotions in a healthy way. This space of Freedom is one of grace, one of “Just Being”. It is a space without the pressure to be on or off, black or white, but a space with many colors and dimensions. A space of Grey, Yellow, Red, Blue, or Orange, a space of complexity.
Let me paint this picture. Recently, while processing grief and the unwelcomed stress from life’s uncertainty, I found myself briefly silenced and unable to speak or move for a period of 48hrs. The silence and lack of mobility was a result of giving out, pressing forward even in lack, pouring out in abundance and not replenishing. I felt empty and completely used by God. Do you know the phrase, “With great power comes great responsibility?” The second part of that sentence should be “with great responsibility, comes great demand”. It is true; although you might be doing glorious work, there are times where the “highs” become “lows.” The lows may come for various reasons: fatigue, exhaustion, stress, illness, death, or worry. Do not let those reasons cause resentment in God or others. You ARE being used, but it is because you have been chosen for a specific purpose, NOT to be abused or mistreated. Additionally, sometimes there is a misconception that those who have much have more resources to work with, and are therefore never in need or have concerns. That my fellow trailblazers is far from the truth. In respect, with more to achieve, or reach, there is always the tendency to either have other people demand more from you or to demand more from yourself.
When life’s challenges push you to your limit, I want to say to all of the “Over- achievers” or “Task- Pursuiters” that even the strong are allowed to have moments of weakness, weariness, or fatigue. I wrestled with these feelings the past two weeks while dealing with particular emotions regarding family, finances, & faith. On one side, knowing who I am as a child of God, I immediately went into this position of claiming my rights as his beloved, his daughter, declaring “I’m the Head and not the Tail, I’m Above and not beneath, I am Healed, I am exceedingly blessed”. I gave myself as much affirmation and validation that believed I needed at the time. Yet, for two days I still wrestled with asking God for help and guidance out of frustration, fatigue, and to be transparent, a bit shame. I felt guilty, as though I had no right to ask for help because maybe I should be more prepared, could have been more preventative, or have done more to be better prepared. But the feelings of shame are lies that you tell yourself out of vulnerability and insecurity. They are created by your own ego, not by God’s will. TODAY, the lies to yourself stop. One of your greatest priorities is to RESIST THE ENEMY of distraction, familiarity, and frustration. Operating in discontent and disengagement creates a temporary resistance & silence within yourself. In my case it was both an emotional and physical case of silence. Not asking for what we need creates major blockages and bondage within us. Asking for help, whether from the Father or from others, is one of the few ways we can untie the knots that our psyche and emotions cause, and thus achieve true freedom.
“My freedom began when I began to open my mouth, direct the word from a healed and whole perspective and I began to raise my voice like a trumpet in, Zion.” (Isaiah 58:1)
In these past few days, I began to share my heart with God, asking God to reveal himself and explain the meaning of a particular scripture. I also began to courageously ask others for what I needed. And hours later, when this revelation manifested, Abba Father gave me comfort by saying these words: “Daughter, just because YOU are here doesn’t change my inheritance. It doesn’t mean I forgot about every seed you have sown, every sacrifice you have made, every tear 😢 you cried in laboring and helping others realize their dreams and visions.” God released what you need SOONER THAN YOU THINK. Look for favorable relief in the unexpected responses around you. You will gain greater perspective because you have given your struggles, stresses, and apprehensions of being in control unto Him when asking for help. Therefore, remember that when you are weak, He is strong, and will give you strength to last far longer than your current storm, crisis, or discomfort. Free yourself by getting out of your own way! Ask God and others through divine instruction for what you need and desire, and although it may not be what you expect, you will receive guidance, and relief.
“I DECLARE THE MIRACLE IS IN YOUR MOUTH AND THE BREAKTHROUGH IS IN YOUR BELLY. We will not be Silenced Any Longer and each day if needed until the cracking of the sky we SHALL CRY Out like a Woman in Travail.” ( Isaiah 26:17) AMEN!