You may look at me and see someone this young and frail.
But if you only knew the battles, you would definitely see me.
I walk into the journey He has especially designed for me
I can’t even imagine just where I will end up, who I will be.
As I look back over the years, at all the tests and trials
You were slowly preparing me for what You had in store.
I never thought that this would be for God,
to use me like he has in such a short span of time.
I remember the good times and the bad,
They shape me and condition me.
Mold me, unfold me, navigate me and nurture me.
Although these moments propel me,
there are days when I dream of something more.
I accept that certain things had to happen
in order for me to arrive here.
I revive my mind in a positive provocation of divine rescue and love.
Nevertheless, the things that create conflict create wonder.
How do I stay free from the chains that attempt to choke me?
Restrain your loving hands, refine me out of the fire?
Consume my conscious from creativity?
How do I make sense of such a savior that resurrects, redeems, and rescues?
Yet place me in the cave, cocooning to crossover?
You provide courageous conditions that fortify my soul,
And endless tears, that stream down my face in humble adoration.
Your directives derived from deadly decisions
leading me towards divinity and delightful duty.
Father, I thirst to be with you all day
and yet the demand for more time is never enough.
I remember when I beckoned to the beat of your drum.
My spirit leaped at the sound of your voice,
I hear The Call, the volume of Your temple chooses me.
It’s hard to believe, You have a choice and daily You choose me.
I often say to myself: “Lord, is this really true?”
I retreat. “I have issues, I’m a mess”, I say to Him.
He says “We all suffer but we strive,
If I wait for everyone to be ready then no one would arrive.”
“I can’t use the ones who are perfect
The ones who think that they have arrived
I needs the weary and the broken,
The ones who survived the test given over and over again.”
God has chosen us all to be ambassadors.
We honor the call.
We share with others the word of Him,
That our lives will never end.
He will never leave us, He won’t forsake us
for when we heed The Call, we truly conquer Sin.
